I was always stuck
With the grandiose idea that you were the one
And always believing
That the future will bring us back together
Foolish.
I took a step back
And reassessed everything that I once stood up for
I once stood up for you
I tried my absolute hardest to make you likeable
Amongst my co-workers
Amongst my friends and especially
Amongst my family
And it never worked
I was the publicist that worked overtime
I was the boyfriend who spent hours
Figuring out why I stuck with you
I still don’t know why. We still don’t know why.
I took a step back
And remember how little you appreciated everything
Or at least how little you showed
I remember how much they had to vouch for you
To convince me you’re better than that
I really don’t believe them. I still don’t.
Perhaps the rose-coloured lens is finally washed out
And I see what I’m supposed to
I’ve given you so much, I had nothing for myself to hang onto
I loved you
I really did love you
Maybe you fucked up more than I gave you credit for
Goodbye past
